Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. Let all that you do be done with love. I Corinthians 16:13, 14 NKJV

Thursday, December 14, 2017

A Way of Living

So during my husbands stay at the hospital - being in the hospital for 12 of 15 days - I was not able to eat the way I enjoy eating. I did the best I could but I was not able to do as good as I usually try to eat. I did my best to get exercise as much as I could but I wasn't able to get in as much as I usually try to do.  And I have found my self up about 3 pounds. Thankfully I had gotten back down to my low weight- before this - so I just have to work on getting back to where I was. And then I am hoping to be able to lose some weight.
What I have figured out - is that this is a lifestyle - this is not a just lose weight and then do what I want. I already knew this - but I just realized that if I want to lose this weight and keep it off - I will have to always stay vigilant. I will have to stay on top of any weight gain. And do what I can to keep it at a minimum. That is what I did while Jason was in the hospital - I did my best to eat a good breakfast. The rest of meals - were not as healthy as I usually like to eat. And I did work to get in at least several good walks in. So I did continue to make small choices here and there towards my goals. I admit that I also made a few poor choices - when I bought a small bag of peanut M&M's.....or two.... :0( Not real happy with myself about that but that is just part of stress eating - sometimes you pick poor choices - especially when you don't have as many healthy choices.

Health - isn't a's a way of living~ isn't that the truth!!
And when we are thinking of taking care of ourselves - it is about more than just losing weight - it's about taking care of our selves - physically, mentally and spiritually. We need to be balanced. :o)

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

A Happy Surprise

This is a post I have wanted to share for quite some time. I just have not had the time to sit down and get it typed out.
When I offered to send books out - a fellow blogger accepted and suggested that we do a book trade of sorts. That sounded awesome. Little did I know that it would be so much more than just a book swap.
After a very demanding day - I got home and pulled a box out of my mail box. When I opened it up I found some lovely surprises!!  
She even crocheted a dishtowel and some wash clothes! Love them!!! 
I am not really into necklaces - but this is a necklace that I love!!! I love the nesting dolls on the placard and I love the beautiful detail on the beads. And the clasp is awesome - such a cool design.  
And this:
This is a beautiful Thomas Kinkade journal. I love it! I love Thomas Kinkade - In fact - he is probably one of my favorite artist. It's too bad that his live ended so young.
What a happy surprise this was! Thank you R! You made my day - and many days since when I have seen these lovely gifts! :O)

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Recouping this week

Hello~ Sorry it has taken me a while to get back on here. I have just been very busy. And I am still feeling like I have a lot to do. I am going to take a few minutes later to sit down and write out what all I want to accomplish the rest of the week. That way I can prioritize the most important things to get done and work on those first.

Jason is still sore but he is very happy to be home. He has been running a fever - this morning was the first time that he was not running a temp. It has gone up a bit this evening, but that is normal.

The time that Jason was in the hospital was draining to me not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. I think that is another reason why I have not been able to get on here and do more writing - I am still in recovery mode. It's during difficult times that we learn a lot about ourselves. That is what has happened - I had one of those moments like - "oh... that is the reason I am like that." And in the process of trying to figure out - what to do with the newly acquired information.

I am reading through an Elizabeth Elliot book - it is just the perfect book for me - it is a keeper for sure. I will be sharing a few little tidbits from it soon.

Hope you all are doing well. :O)

Sunday, December 10, 2017

We are home, thankfully

I've been trying for a couple of hours to get a page to come up so I could write out this post, but for some reason it would not bring up a post page. Thankfully now I have an opportunity to give an update. I am happy to report that my husband was discharged from the hospital today! I was so happy to hear this news. Last night I struggled with the repercussions of all the stress that I have been under for the past two weeks. 12 of the last 15 days my husband and I have spent at a hospital. It drains you. The stress of node ring what is going on is a lot and then there is the stress of trying to keep up with as much as I could here at home and the driving back and forth. Anyway this morning I began feeling the stress build up again, I was afraid that I would get the dreaded news of Jason having to stay in the hospital another night. And I came to a place of acceptance about it. But I am thrilled he was able to come home. He is running a fever so we are keeping an eye on him. Tomorrow we will be calling the Dr office to set up appointment.

I am so exhausted that even though it is only 8:45pm- I am really thinking I will finish this post up and then I will finish getting ready for bed. I need to recoup from the last several of weeks- they have been stressful. This week I want to get back into eating better- and I want to get more exercise in. I've done the best I could but last week I only got 2 walks and one workout with weight. Hopefully this week will be a more successful week for me.

Ok- I better close. Hoping I will be able to get back to posting soon. :0)

Friday, December 8, 2017

An over due update

 So sorry to be getting on here so late for an update. Thankfully Jason was able to have surgery today. He didn't make it back to his room till almost 3pm. The surgery went well. He was in the recover roomy twice as long as I had thought he would be and it really worried me. Even after he got back to his room-  His oxygen level were low causing him to have to be on oxygen for a while. He was able to get up walk around his unit a good amount. This evening he was able to eat a regular meal!! That is big news! It had been since Thanksgiving since he had been able to eat a regular meal.

 In the 8 days that my husband has been in the hospital this time- when I have left the hospital - there has been a wreck at one particular intersection two different days. I think that this intersection needs something done for safety. I've been very thankful that I did not get to that intersection any earlier than I did. Today I went by his wreck before the cops had made it out- that's how recent the wreck occurred. As I drove on by - I not only prayed for those involved, I also thanked the Lord for His protection.

I am exhausted and my battery is running low- so I will close for now. The plan is that every thing goes well that Jason will be able to come home tomorrow. I sure hope so!!!

Thank you for the prayers, they mean a lot. :0)

Thursday, December 7, 2017

surgery scheduled

We are still waiting to hear from the Dr. But we hav heard that Jasin will have surgery tbremove his gallbladder tomorrow morning at 9:45. Please keep him in your prayers. I'll try to get on here and update as soon as I'm able to do so tomorrow.
Thanks for the continued prayers. :0)

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

My Best Deal

So last week - in the middle of all of the hassles of my husband's medical problems I was able to make a quick stop at a local thrift store and I got a great deal! I didn't realize how good of a deal I got until I got home.

This book as a brand new price on it at $14.99
I thought they were going to charge me $1.99, but when I got home and was looking at the receipt - I noticed that I had only been charged .49 cents! What an awesome deal!! It has a lot of new pages in this book - along with pages for each month so you can plan what you will be doing in your garden each month. It really is a cute book. I can't wait to start planning our next garden. I am thinking this book will be an awesome resource for years to come.

What awesome deals have you guys gotten lately? I know you get good deals - cause I see your posts about them. Finding great deals is just another bright spot in life!! :O)

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Before you get confused and think I'm perfect....

So before you get confused by my last post and think I am perfect, I need to do a "rest of the story" like Paul Harvey used to do.

My husband had the scope done. Nothing conclusive from the scope... That was disappointing.  My poor husband is suffering and these tests all come back normal and it is frustrating to him. They have another test they want to do before they head in the "gallbladder is causing this issue" direction. Sadly it couldn't be scheduled till about noon time tomorrow. Another long day for my husband not getting to eat.

When his tray of food arrived- it was a hamburger and fries... Poor thing he is hungry and would love to eat and got frustrated. This time I wasn able to just stay quiet- I tried to be as nice as I could be but we did have words. I need to spend some more time in prayer and in my Bible so that tomorrow I can be more patient.

So the test will be run around noon. The positive for me is- I don't have to get everything done at home in a rush and then leave my house early to make sure I am here before test is run- like I have done for the last 3 days. The negative is that more than likely if a surgery is needed- which I think there is- it probably won't happen till Thursday. And one more day of my husband not getting to eat.

Please continue to pray. I know God is still listening- I got a text from my mother in law telling me of her looking for a couple of things and God telling her where to look. So He is still listening.... Just not answering in the way or in the time I'd like him to answer.

And continues...

Seven out of the last ten days I have spent at the hospital. It gets old, really old. What makes it even harder is that my husband is grumpy- which hurts my feelings.  My selfishness wants to say, "Hey, I hate coming to the hospital every day- the least you can do is be nice to me." What good would that do? Plus it's a very self-centered way to act. So I dab the tears away and ask God for an extra measure of patience and kindness and trust that He will comfort my heart.

I can't blame my husband though- it's been a whole week or more since he's gotten to really eat and feel decent. Over two weeks of throwing up and feeling bad. He is hungry and can't eat- I'd be grumpy too.

So the GI Dr. had a full schedule on Monday so the scope was not done. My husband continues to get very nauseous and throw up or at least dry heave any time he tries to eat. Poor thing he is very hungry and really wants to eat but feels like crap if he does. So he is in a lose/lose situation. No matter what he does he is miserable.

So the scope will be done this am. We were told 9:30am- but it's 9:15am as I type and they have not gotten him from his room yet so who knows. Please continue to pray for answers and comfort. Thank you so much.

So at 9:25 we found out that they are running behind and so it will be an hour to an hour and a half- so another day of hurry up... Only to wait.... So test will be closer to 11:00am area.

Monday, December 4, 2017

The Questions Continue

So we had been hoping for more testing to be done on Sunday but the Dr on duty is a Dr that we know caused some major ongoing health issues for another family member - so we had to pass on having that Dr do the test and wait until today. We are hoping that they can get the scope done - and the Dr also said they may want to do a colonoscopy- so maybe that will be done as well.

All I know is that we want answers. J tried to eat a couple of times - he is hungry - poor thing hasn't been able to hardly eat anything at all since Thursday. And of course not too long after eating he was throwing up again. It is frustrating to see the ones you love suffer. He has suffered long enough really. Something needs to give.

Please continue to pray for him - that we will get answers and that they can fix what ever the problem is. Thank you so much.

Sunday, December 3, 2017

The Saga Continues....

I was gonna wait till later to share this post but I wanted to post and ask for prayers - that the Drs can figure out what the problem is. Spending this much time at the hospital is frustrating to both my husband and me. Thankfully there are some positives about the hospital we are at this time. 
 So first all I need to say a few things - thankfully we have Jason at a different hospital this time. This one is not down town - a big plus as the hospital he is at now is one half the distance as the down town hospital.
Another wonderful plus - is that at this hospital - you don't have to pay to park. When a loved on is in the hospital - you already have extra expenses - bills, food, and then at this hospital - you have to pay to park - $1.00 an hour or $5.00 total. And to me - that is annoying- especially when you  are leaving the hospital  without any answers.

As an added bonus this hospital has a walking trail around it. With these lovely benches and Bible verses along the path

There is lot of "Faith" needed along the journey of life. It is hard to let go and let God. He is in control - we may not understand, we jut have to leave the problems in God's hands and have faith He will take care of it.

"Hope" is another gift from God that I am thankful for. Life throws us a lot of trials, but we can put our hope in Him!  

He also gives us strength and "endurance" for the journey of life!  

"Joy" and "Peace" are a couple more wonderful gift that we get from God.
These things come as a result of a personal relationship with Him.  

The First Hospital Visit in our Saga....

So last week I shared about how we have had a rough week. A rough week that started off with us losing our sweet Wally. Well now I have time for part two of the story - the story that is still continuing as I type this up.
This part of the story actually starts the Monday before Thanksgiving. My husband started feeling sick on Monday, in fact, he had to pull over and throw up on his way to work A couple of weeks before I had been sick and part of mine was feeling nauseous - so we didn't think much of it. He continued on going to work for the next couple of days. Feeling lousy and throwing up here and there. This sickness just held on....
On Saturday night his chest started hurting. We gave him aspirin and also a zantac. We took his blood pressure and everything seemed alright. So he decided to wait on going to the ER. Sunday he felt even lousier and decided to go to the ER. They decided to admit him and took him to a hospital downtown.
At the hospital - they followed what I call and one track tunnel vision protocol - that involved a stress test to see if it was his heart. Monday he was nauseous and throwing up and they basically gave him prescription for Zofran and sent him home. Problem not found... problem not fixed.
While at the hospital on Monday - my sister suggested I try to get a walk in. After my lunch in the cafeteria - it was such a beautiful day that I decided to go for a walk around the block. I had never walked in this area - downtown- but decided I needed the exercise and sunshine would do me good. He was in a room without a window. 

I saw a few neat sights that I took photos of to share:
And I discovered something that will be helpful to me in 6 months.
At my last visit to my oncologist, I was told that they would be moving soon - and if I am correct - I think this could be the new location:
So now back to our story:
He continued to be nauseous and throw up.

Thankfully he was able to get in to see his Gastroenterologist- and he set up an ultrasound of his abdomen. That was done Wed. By Thursday we found out that the ultrasound came back normal. But we had been told that sometimes gallbladder problems don't show up on this test and that if nothing showed up they would send him for a gallbladder function test.  The only problem was that the soonest they could get him in was Wed. And he was miserable - nauseous most of the time and throwing up most everything he ate. He could not go on like this... So on Friday I took him to the ER. And I will have to have that post another day.

Please be praying that answers are found as to why he is so nauseous and throwing everything up. Thank you so much.

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Beloved Names of God...series.."Living Stone"

"Living Stone"

 "To whom coming, as unto a living stone, disallowed indeed of men,
but chosen of God, and precious."
1 Peter 2:4 KJV
  • Name of God the Son
  • Jesus is referred to as a "living stone" twice in the KJV.
  • The living stone is a reference to the fulfillment of the prophecy which talked about the arrival of the Chief Cornerstone.
  • Peter was encouraging Christians not to be distracted by the ways of the world but to cling instead to "the Word." Jesus as people in previous times had God's promise that He would send them a "precious cornerstone"  (Isaiah 28:16 NIV), so the people of Peter's time had seen this stone arrive and live! They also saw Him live, die - and live again!
With the Cornerstone of Jesus in place, Peter encouraged those who heard his message- both then and now- to play their parts in the spiritual building that rises from that wonderful foundation. Ancient Sparta boasted that it needed no city walls; each of its soldiers was a brick in its defenses. In much the same way, you and I get to join the Living Stone as building blocks in His lively and living church.
Come back next week when we will look at "Eternal Spirit"

Friday, December 1, 2017

Back to the Basics

As I mentioned in yesterdays post, Friday was my birthday. And you know what that means.... it is time for a 50 by 50 update. July of 2016 I began a new journey. A journey to lose 50 pounds by the time I turned 50 years old and to not only lose the weight but to keep it off. I have lost 50 pounds before- but I haven't kept it off. It takes a lot of work and determination for me to lose 50 pounds. And every since my hysterectomy in 2013, I have been finding it even harder to lose weight.

I have lost 37 pound, however over the last several weeks with getting sick and not feeling good enough to exercise and then having my granddaughter for a week and feeding my family and not having as much time to fix my healthier meals _ I actually went up 2-3 pounds, but I have been working towards losing that weight and I am down to only 1 pound above my lowest weigh in now! And I plan to lose that other pound - if not more before the Christmas dinners begin. Hoping if I just work at keeping it off at least till the beginning of the new year - I can begin to lose weight again. I have been on a plateau long enough now. It feels like forever.

I have already spent time thinking about all of the healthy strategies that I have been using in order to lose weight and I have been getting back to the basics.

Setting my goal for long term has really made this a doable goal for me. I am so thankful that I did. I had been told that it was harder to lose weight during menopause and afterwards, and they certainly were right. Giving myself plenty of time has made it possible for me to lose the weight. And not give up. I have gotten discouraged especially over the last couple of months that I have felt like I am sitting still, but I am not giving up. I have come too far to give up and go back.

Sometimes while we are working towards our goals we get off track, but the key to reaching our goals is to get right back on track as soon as we can. Decide today what are some things you can do today to take better care of yourself and then implement them into your day. You are worth taking care of!

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Blessed Hope

Friday was my birthday and I had every intention of spending a few minutes to write up a post. But the day ended up being filled to the rim.

I ended up having to go to a funeral on my birthday. My friend that I have told you all about - the one who also had endometrial cancer passed away Tuesday morning and Friday was her funeral. Once treatment was finished she had 3 months till her first check up in July when they did a scan and found several tumors. Even at that point I think we all felt she would have more time. Four months later she is gone. Asleep in Jesus, waiting for the day that He will come again and take her home.

                                 For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of an archangel, and with the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first.
17 Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord.
18 Therefore comfort one another with these words. 
1 Thessalonians 4:16-18
The very next time she opens her eyes she will see Jesus!! I'm so thankful that we have this hope!
Jesus promised:
1 "Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.
2 In My Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.
3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. 
John 14:1-3
These verses- by the way - were my friend Karen's favorite verses. I hope they comfort your heart as they do mine.
Sin, sadness, and death are a part of this sinful world but one day soon, Jesus will come again!
  4 And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."         
Revelation 21:4
For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men,
12 teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly in the present age,
13 looking for the blessed hope and glorious appearing of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ,
         14 who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every lawless deed and purify for Himself His own special people, zealous for good works.
Titus 2:11-14
Praise the LORD!

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

It all started on Thursday....

So sorry it has taken me so long to get back here to get posts typed up. It has been a rough week. We will start at the beginning of the rough week.

Thursday morning started like every other morning. After quiet time it was time to take care of my animals. Since it was Thanksgiving and I was hosting a big thanksgiving dinner at our church, I was distracted. I let our kittens out of the sunroom, where they spend their nights and proceeded to get my bowl of kitchen scraps to take out to my chickens. As I got to the back door, which is in the sunroom- out of the corner of my eye - I caught a sight that stopped me dead in my tracks. our Wally was laying on the middle platform of the climbing toy. My heart knew instantly that something was wrong. Wally is the most loving cat and for him not to come and love me is totally out of his character.

Wally was dead. My husband and I have never lost a pet like that before. Every cat that we have lost in the past has gotten ill and we've had to take them to the vet and decide that it was best to put them down. It always hurts, but this situation has been different. Wally was only 1 1/2 years old and had seemed totally find the day before - and then he was gone.

Many tears were shed and I ended up having to reapply my make up before heading to the church to get our Thanksgiving meal going.

Our hearts are heavy as we go through the grieving period. Please keep up in your prayers for that and the rest - which will be a rest of the story told on another day. See you all tomorrow.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Still here... Barely....

Just checking in for a few minutes. Sorry I don't have more time right now, but I wanted to let you know we're still alive. We have had several unexpected events happen since I've posted. I have a couple of posts written out- will need to get them typed up and posted as soon as I can.

It's been a stressful day and I am super tired so I better get off of her and get to bed. Will up date as soon as I can.

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Be Thankful...Not just in November but all year round

If you are on Facebook then you know that many times people use the month of November to share what they are thankful for each day. In the past I have even participated in this practice.

I think it is very important for us to be thankful, but I don't think it should be limited to a month out of the year. I do think that this practice on Facebook helps get us into the mindset of being thankful and looking around to see what we are thankful for. And maybe once the month of November is done we will be in a habit of looking for blessings in our lives.

It is the will of God for us to give thanks!  

Did you notice in verse 2 it says that people will be ungrateful in the list talking about the last days?

When we are going through hard times and we choose to continue to praise God - this is called a sacrifice of praise- and we are called to "continually offer the sacrifice of praise to God"!

The Bible says in Psalms that the LORD daily loadeth us with benefits! Every day there are blessing - some days it may be harder than others for us to find them - but if we look we will find them!

I think this week - the week of Thanksgiving would be a great time for us to take a little extra time to see how we can be more grateful throughout the entire year.

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

An Extra Blessing Added

Several years ago I discovered Danskin exercise pants - the ones that have pockets! I like wearing these when I do my workouts at home. I love having the pockets so I can keep my phone on me and get credit for the movements on my health app. on my phone.

The only problem is that since I have lost weight my exercise pants are too big. I have been wearing them, but I have to pull them way up and do my best to tie them tight enough to hold them up. So I have been on the lookout for a smaller pair for a few months. I have a pair of them in capris that fit great but I knew going into the cooler months I would need a pair of pants.

One of the problems with shopping in thrift stores is that when you are looking for specific items you have to be patient. Sometimes it takes a while. But the reward of patience is when you find what you are looking for and you are able to get it for a much lower price then retail.

My plan had been when I got done with my oncology appointment, I would hit up several thrift stores up in that area. Well since I wasn't feeling good- I chose a small store closest to my Dr's office to visit. And it turned out to be my lucky day!! I found a dark gray pair of Danskin exercise pants with pockets!! I was so thankful that I found them. And I also found this beautiful top that you can see in the photo:
As the time rolled on by I felt worse and worse and decided it would be best for me to go on home to rest. Which was a good decision because I ended up feeling lousy and running a fever most of the afternoon.

Ever since I have started looking for specific items- it has given me more of a chance to be grateful. I can better recognize the blessing that God provided a need. And that is just an extra blessing that is added!

Monday, November 20, 2017

Useless....I think not

Last week I saw the following on Facebook and wanted to share it here - just in case there was someone here who needed to heart his. I think that many of us have struggled with the feelings of being useless. If you have felt that way - read the following and I hope you are blessed and have a renew hope of how valuable you are in God's plans! You may not always recognize the value because we live in a sinful world - one in which the world's values are much different than what God sees as valuable. Don't be discouraged. God has plans for you and your live. Allow Him to guide you. :O)

Continue On
By:  Roy Lessin

A woman once fretted over the
usefulness of her life.  She feared she was
wasting her potential being a devoted wife and
mother.  She wondered if the time and
energy she invested in her husband and
children would make a difference.

At times she got discouraged because so
much of what she did seemed to go unnoticed
and unappreciated.  "Is it worth it?" she often
wondered.  "Is there something better that
I could be doing with my time?"

It was during one of these moments of
questioning that she heard the still small voice
of her Heavenly Father speak to her heart.
"You are a wife and mother because that is
what I have called you to be.  Much of what
you do is hidden from the public eye.  But I
notice.  Most of what you give is done without
remuneration.  But I am your reward.

Your husband cannot be the man
I have called him to be without your support.
Your influence on him is greater than you
think and more powerful than you
will ever know.  I bless him through your service
and honor him through your love. 
Your children are precious to Me.  Even more
precious than they are to you.  I have
entrusted them to your care to raise for Me.
What you invest in them is an offering to Me.

You may never be in the public spotlight.
But your obedience shines as a bright light
before Me.  Continue on.  Remember
you are My servant.  Do all to please Me."

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Expectations can lead to Disappointment

I was reminded again this week that expectations can lead to disappointments. And the truth is that usually they do.

When I finished my cancer treatment, I was told that I would have to go in form check ups every 3 months and then I would graduation to every six months then to yearly visits. Well some how I got the idea that at this last visit to my oncologist that I would graduate to the next level - yearly check ups. So imagine my disappointment when I was told to come back in 6 months. And then I will have another 6 month check up. If at that point I am all clear- I will transition back to a regular gyn. for my yearly check ups.

So yes, I am a bit disappointment. The Dr said everything looked good. And my ca-125 number has come down. Several other numbers are elevated or much lower than usual and I am hoping that has to do with infection that I am fighting.

I feel bad whining about having to go back to the oncologist in 6 months when I have friends who are back in treatment.

On my way to the oncologist, I drove by the road that leads to my friends house and I almost started to cry. On the 9th of November she was admitted to the Hospice House and I thought about how hard it must have been for her - knowing she would never see her home again. I have a lot to be thankful for. So although I was a bit disappointed, I am choosing to look at the things I have to be thankful for. I don't think we think on these things enough.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Beloved Names of God..series "Fountain of Living Waters"

"Fountain of Living Waters"

"For my people have committed two evils;
they have forsaken me the fountain of living waters,
and hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns
that can hold no water."
Jeremiah 2:13 KJV
  • Name of God the Father
  • God is referred to as the "fountain of living waters" twice in the KJV.
  • If anyone doubted that one flowed from the other, God describes Himself here and "the fountain of living waters." In the book of John, Jesus tells the Samaritan woman that He is the One from whom she can drink living water (4:10).
  • Through Jeremiah, God vents His frustration and amazement that His people have, even after a history of disastrous consequences, once again turned to false gods.
Imagine God's frustration when people started turning to man-made gods and idols- again! Everything man-made fails. Even the water-collecting cisterns, hewn from solid rock, would occasionally crack.   
Jesus and the Holy Spirit are life-sustaining "waters" that need no cisterns. God is the fountain from which those waters flow. None of them are man-made!
Next week we look at "Living Stone"

Friday, November 17, 2017

Hello .....

So a little update. Last week end I got sick, by Monday I went to the Dr and was put on antibiotics. On Wed I had to go see the oncologist. She said everything looked good - it will be several days before I get lab results back. I am still not feeling good. This is a tough bug that I have.

I have several blog posts that I have written up I just have not had a chance to get on the computer to get them typed up. I am hoping to get a chance to do that later today.

Our son gets his daughter this evening for the week. And I will be taking care of her. So I will be quite busy. I just wanted to let you all know that just in case I am not able to get the blog posts typed up that I have ready to go. If I don't get to them later- I will get them written up and posted as soon as I can. But I just have a lot of things going on plus not feeling good is making it harder for me to get things done.

I hope you all are doing well. Take care. Hope to check  back in later. :O)

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Looking for Specific Items

Several months ago my sister told me of a blogger who had found an army jacket or utility jacket(not sure exactly what they are called) at a thrift store for one dollar!! What?! Well I didn't hold onto unrealistic idea's that I would find that good of a deal, but I did decide to start looking for a jacket like it for myself.

I had already noticed the jackets every where. People around me wearing them, people on commercials and on tv shows wearing this awesome jacket. I think this is a style jacket that is kind of like a classic like denim jackets. And whether they are in fashion at a particular time or not - they can be a persons style. So really they don't go out of style - if it is your style.
Anyway so any time I made it to a thrift store or goodwill - I would check out there jacket section.
And lo and behold I found one at a little whole in the wall thrift store in a town nearby!!! And the best part - is that it is black! I love the army green ones! I love that color, but truthfully this black one will be more practical for me. Now if I find an army green one for a good deal - I would probably still buy it, but I am perfectly content with my great find!
No - I didn't get it for a dollar. But I did get it for $3.00 - which in my opinion is a great deal!! :O)
What great deals have you found lately? I would love to hear about them?

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

A Milestone - Four Years

Today is my oncology checkup appointment. To be honest - I have been a bit more emotional lately. This usually happens around this time. But this year I have more reasons to be emotional about it. I have two friends who have had reoccurrences. One of them is going through treatment again, and the other one....she has been admitted to a hospice house... not expected to live very much longer. Her cancer is very aggressive. My heart breaks for her family. It could be me. She too, was diagnosed with endometrial cancer- but she has a combo of two different kinds and the combo and being very aggressive has made it move so very fast.

I also need prayers because earlier this week I got sick. I was able to get in to see the Dr Monday afternoon and have been on meds ever since- I was hoping to be feeling better by now so I had not rescheduled. These appt are made 6 months in advanced and I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to get an apt this year and since we have meant our first deductible for the year I would not have to pay the entire $158. For the appt like I would have to do if the appt was put off till next year. Anyway so now I'm committed to go and want to feel decent enough to go and also am praying that I'm not contagious- since I've been on meds for a few days.

Anyway I would sure appreciate prayers. Prayers that if there is any reason what so ever that I might need a ct scan that my Dr will order one. We have meant our deductible for the year so we would not have to pay for the whole entire testing cost. But I don't want to spend money unnecessarily, so I don't want to just ask for a ct scan. Anyway I am putting my trust in God - He is in control.

Oh and a bit of positive news here - this will mark my 4th year since my surgery! Isn't that awesome?!

Thanks so much for the prayers - they mean a lot! :O)

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Being at the Right Place and the Right Time!

I was going to title this post - "Some Teacher's Are Dumb" but I didn't want to insult anyone - who may not take the time to read the post and see what it was really about.
So last week I went to a local Goodwill store. And after I looked through clothes and did not find anything, I decided to look through the rows of other stuff. Well I just happened to be at the right place and the right time. A worker placed the following on the shelf right in front of where I was looking!!!!
I quickly noticed that this was a piece of Tupperware. Now some people call any plastic storage container - "Tupperware" but that is not what I am talking about here I am talking about the real Tupperware which, by the way, I love!!
I picked it up and looked at the price tag...$1.99 - just the Tupperware container was worth way more than that - then I noticed it had stuff inside. This looked as if it were a gift from a student to a teacher - with a lot of goodies inside! 
Highlighters, pens, markers, red pencils, a pencil, stickers, post it note pad, and candy - only problem - this apparently just sat around for a long time because the candy was not good. Oh well. I didn't need the candy anyway. I was so thrilled with my great deal!!
I was almost as excited for this good deal as another great deal I have found recently, but I don't have time to tell you about it- you will have to come back later for that post. See ya soon!! :O)

Monday, November 13, 2017

Wanna Free Book?

These are two books that I have come across lately that are awesome books!
I have finished reading "I Will Give You Rest" and it was very good.
I have now started reading "After God's Heart" and it is excellent as well. This book would be a good book to do as a book club - because at the end of each chapter there is a study guide to prompt a discussion.  
If either or both of these books are books you would be interested in reading - just send an email with your address to : and I will send you the books.
They have blessed my heart and I would like to pass the blessing along to you. :O)

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Beloved Names of God...series.."High Priest"


High Priest

"Wherefore, holy brethren, partakers of the heavenly calling,
 consider the Apostle and High Priest of our profession, Christ Jesus."
Hebrews 3:1 kjv
  • Name of God the Son
  • Jesus is referred to as the "High Priest" ten times in the KJV.
  • High Priest refers to the executed founder and very present help of the new Christin movement.
  • The speaker in Hebrews 3:1 is reminding his listeners of Jesus' faithfulness to God and their commitment to be faithful to Jesus. He is both the apostle (guided by God) and the high priest (a great teacher sent directly from heaven).
The book of Hebrews is a call to faith and steadfastness in the face of adversity. Those early Christians faced fear and uncertainty, and some of them may have left the church as a result. It's a situation modern Christians know only too well, which is why the message of Hebrews is still applicable to our lives today. Jesus was faithful unto death and beyond; the least we can do is to be faithful in life.
Next week we will be looking at  the name "Fountain of Living Waters"

Thursday, November 9, 2017

God Has A Plan

"When everything around me seems to fall apart, I need to remember that God has a plan. Nothing takes Him by surprise; He is never early or late; nothing escapes His notice or is above His head. He has a plan and possesses the power to execute it! That's good news, isn't is? He usually doesn't reveal His whole plan to us, though; only the next step we need to take. But He knows the full plan, and we can trust Him with it." pg. 12-13
a great quote from the book I just started reading this week.
It is a great book by Elizabeth Viera Talbot

Monday, November 6, 2017

I think Fall has arrived!

Since I had to be out of my house by 6:45am on Monday morning - I had picked out an outfit the night before. I had thought that it would be cooler when I got up and had picked out a short sleeved top. When I went out to take care of my chickens I realized it wasn't so cool and decided on a sleeveless top instead. Several hours later it was cooler than it had been at 6:30am - but still very comfortable in my sleeveless top and capris.

My granddaughter(who had the day off and so we had her and extra day - we did not find out till Sunday afternoon~ bonus!) and I spent a couple of hours at the park. The weather was just perfect for time spent there! :O)

This week end we went on a little adventure at the park - turns out my granddaughter loves checking out tunnels - just like I did! :O)

She loves the little bridge as well! :O)

We checked out gopher mounds - trying to guess  which were gopher mounds and which were ant piles. We saw a mound of red ants - they are larger ants - that I think eat fire ants(not certain about that) and we saw a little path through the grass that they took to hunt for food. It was fun following the path.
The windows are opened and we are enjoying the breeze and cooler air. I looked at my weather app and noticed that it looks like Fall may have finally arrived here in Texas!

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Are you ready for another summer day?

Are you ready for another summer day? Well I need to be since that is what it looks like for those of us in Texas. In fact, we have set the record for the highest temps for 2 days so far this November. Thursday was one of those days. We hit 90 degrees! Then Friday came along and even though the weather people said it would get to the high 70's we probably barely high 70 degrees- it was an awesome day. But Texas weather being bipolar- lol- we hit a high of 90 again on Sabbath breaking yet another record for November. And guess what? We are set to possibly break yet another record today.

Weather like this makes it difficult to know how to dress each day. Or causes a person to have to change clothes later in the day to weather appropriate clothes. By this time of year many people have put their summer clothes away- you know since it is fall. But I have done my normal for this time of year. I have divided my summer clothes into two groups - favorites and less favorites. Favorites get to stay in the closet for now. While the less favorite clothes are packed into a tote.

It looks like we have a several more above fall like weather days and then we may get another taste of fall for a while. In Texas you really never know. The weather has a way of surprising us some times.

How is the weather where you are?

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Beloved Names of God.......series..Physician

"But their scribes and Pharisees murmured against his disciples, saying, Why do ye eat and drink with publicans and sinners? And Jesus answering said unto them, They that are whole need not a physician; but they that are sick."  
Luke 5:30-31
  • Name of God the Son
  • There are four instances of Jesus being compared to a physician in the KJV.
  • The term physician can be applied to a doctor or a healer.
  • Matthew had invited Jesus to dine with his friends. The Pharisees didn't think Matthew's friends were the kind of people a respectable rabbi should be handing out with. Jesus told them these were exactly the people He had come to see.
Humans have a great propensity for love and self- sacrifice; we can be generous and understanding; we are intelligent and can see only too well the benefits of cooperation; and we know deep down that love is the answer to ever problem. We are capable of a great deal of devotion and kindness- but out capabilities don't always translate into action.
Why is it that despite knowing how we ought to be, and can be, we still allow greed and fear to drag us down and make us less?
There is no other explanation for this disparity than that we must be sick. Greed was the gift of the serpent in the Garden of Eden. This was the "virus" he infected us all with. Fear is just one of its side effects. Humankind has been sick since the Fall. But there is a solution. Jesus is both the Physician and the medicine that will restore us back to perfect health.
Come back next week as we will look at Jesus - the High Priest

Friday, November 3, 2017

Trust Me- It Doesn't Help

Today I will be sharing some of my heart with you dear reader in hopes that maybe I can help someone else who may be in my shoes. I think sometimes we say things that really hurt others and cause extra pain and add extra weight to the burden they are already carrying and we may not even know it.

Maybe these stories were told to me before but I don't remember them. Maybe it's because it didn't hit so close to home. But it seems that ever since my husband was diagnosed with early onset Parkinson's mostly those who love me feel the need to tell me stories of people with Parkinson's- including all the gory details.

Just this week at the most inopportune time (at a restaurant, in the middle of the meal) my mother in low out of no where began to tell me of a long ago pastor and his poor wife with Parkinson's. We had not been talking about my husband or Parkinson's - it was just totally out of the blue. Almost like a slap to my face, it took my breath away. It took all I could do not to cry. And I couldn't even say anything for fear the tears would start if I did.

She's not the only one, I've had this happen with other loved ones- who I have asked not to tell me the horrible stories - who forget I asked them not to or because they think I need to hear it...continue to share the stories with me....

Do these people thank that I do not know about this disease?

Do they think that they are helping me?

I know plenty about Parkinson's. My husband and I went to a Parkinson's symposium, we sat there (the youngest couple by far) for several hours hearing the brutal facts. I do not need to hear stories of other people I don't even know. I have enough pain dealing with reality. I do not need the extra burden of what I might be dealing with in the future. When the fears creep in, I try to turn them over to God. He is in control.

If you know someone dealing with a painful diagnosis or their loved one is, please think twice before sharing scary stories with them. Because truthfully all that does is causes fear- and where does fear come from? It doesn't come from God.

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."
II Timothy 1:7
I choose to claim the verse in Deuteronomy:
"As your days, so shall your strength be."
Deuteronomy 33:25b

This was true for me during the cancer "adventure" I went through and many times before and since. I believe God will continue to get me through each day. It doesn't mean it'll all be easy- don't I already know that, but I continue to trust in God.
So please think twice before passing along those unpleasant experiences. Instead think of uplifting and encouraging things you can share with those you may think are in denial - because they are probably carrying around more pain than you realize. And those sad stories don't help.
When trying to decide what to say - this is a very good verse to consider:
8Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
Philippians 4:8

Come back next week when I will be sharing a post about  ~what would Jesus do

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Good News for Doubting Thomas'

19That Sunday eveningb the disciples were meeting behind locked doors because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders. Suddenly, Jesus was standing there among them! “Peace be with you,” he said. 20As he spoke, he showed them the wounds in his hands and his side. They were filled with joy when they saw the Lord! 21Again he said, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I am sending you.”
John 20:19-21

24One of the twelve disciples, Thomas (nicknamed the Twin),c was not with the others when Jesus came. 25They told him, “We have seen the Lord!”
But he replied, “I won’t believe it unless I see the nail wounds in his hands, put my fingers into them, and place my hand into the wound in his side.”
26Eight days later the disciples were together again, and this time Thomas was with them. The doors were locked; but suddenly, as before, Jesus was standing among them. “Peace be with you,” he said. 27Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and look at my hands. Put your hand into the wound in my side. Don’t be faithless any longer. Believe!”
28“My Lord and my God!” Thomas exclaimed.
29Then Jesus told him, “You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who believe without seeing me.”
John 20:24-29

This passage in Scripture is from the New Living Translation.

This was one of those passages in the Bible that I knew and thought I understood it, but last week when I went to prayer meeting, I caught something in this story that really spoke to my heart. You see I struggle with being a doubting Thomas at times. So I could relate to his questionings.

I had understood that Thomas had doubted but I hadn't caught the part that Thomas hadn't been with the disciples the first time that Jesus appeared to them. And then we come to the amazing part of the story. The next time Jesus appears to the disciples - Jesus speaks directly to Thomas- and offers him exactly what Thomas said he needed to do before he would believe! Jesus met Thomas where he was! Then He said lovingly, without condemnation, "Don't be faithless any longer. Believe!"

This is like a balm to my soul because sometimes I find myself doubting and with little to no faith, but God meets us where we are and draws us to Himself.

verse 29 tells us "Blessed are those who believe with out seeing me" that would be you and me!

30The disciples saw Jesus do many other miraculous signs in addition to the ones recorded in this book. 31But these are written so that you may continue to believed that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing in him you will have life by the power of his name.
John 20:30-31

When we find ourselves being a doubting Thomas all we have to do is ask just like the little boys father did in Mark 9:24

24The father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!”

Faith is one of the many gifts of God

8For by grace are you saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God
Ephesians 2:8 NKJV 

2Looking unto Jesus the author and perfecter of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Hebrews 12:2 NKJV

And remember that Jesus loves you and will meet you where you are and supply all your needs.

It is so exciting to get something new out of verses and stories in the Bible that I thought I knew and understood! It is a good incentive to keep studying!

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

old refiner never leaves his crucible

A couple of days ago the devotional in my Streams in the Desert book was so very good that I wanted to share it with you all. Only problem was that I was not able to get to my computer to get it all set up till today. So here it is - I hope it blesses you. :O)


He shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver (Malachi 3:3).

Our Father, who seeks to perfect His saints in holiness, knows the value of the refiner's fire. It is with the most precious metals that the assayer takes the most pains, and subjects them to the hot fire, because such fires melt the metal, and only the molten mass releases its alloy or takes perfectly its new form in the mould.
The old refiner never leaves his crucible, but sits down by it, lest there should be one excessive degree of heat to mar the metal. But as soon as he skims from the surface the last of the dross, and sees his own face reflected, he puts out the fire.
--Arthur T. Pierson

He sat by a fire of seven-fold heat,
As He watched by the precious ore,
And closer He bent with a searching gaze
As He heated it more and more.
He knew He had ore that could stand the test,
And He wanted the finest gold
To mould as a crown for the King to wear,
Set with gems with a price untold.
So He laid our gold in the burning fire,
Tho' we fain would have said Him 'Nay,'
And He watched the dross that we had not seen,
And it melted and passed away.
And the gold grew brighter and yet more bright,
But our eyes were so dim with tears,
We saw but the fire--not the Master's hand,
And questioned with anxious fears.
Yet our gold shone out with a richer glow,
As it mirrored a Form above,
That bent o'er the fire, tho' unseen by us,
With a look of ineffable love.
Can we think that it pleases His loving heart
To cause us a moment's pain?
Ah, no! but He saw through the present cross
The bliss of eternal gain.
So He waited there with a watchful eye,
With a love that is strong and sure,
And His gold did not suffer a bit more heat,
Than was needed to make it pure.

Monday, October 30, 2017

God didn't come to condemn and neither should we....

I have some very painful situations that I am dealing with - disappointments, frustrations, and fears. But these things are private things - things I really can't share with others. Then I have other things in my life that are a bit easier for me to talk about that are causing me pain and frustration.

This past week-end when I shared some of my heart with a friend at church, I soon realized that they were not as safe as I had thought they were. In a mater of minutes I felt judges and condemned, when they not only pointed out one, but several character defects. Did I need all of these defects pointed out at once? I don't know. But I know it sure did hurt.

As I shared last week - that I had been focused on the wrong thing and I needed to give God the glory. And if the pointing out of defects had stopped there I may not have left the conversation feeling condemned.

This conversation took place before church and to be honest, it had such a negative impact  on me it was difficult for me to focus on the sermon and I ended up having to ask a friend what she had gotten out of the sermon to which she replied:

"I heard the message that we don't get to heaven by all the stuff we do, but only through Jesus. That He has give His righteousness to us and there is nothing we can do to deserve it." 
 As my mind tried to wrap around all that had been said - the word condemned kept coming up- so I looked up the verse in the Bible that talks about the fact that God did not send His son to condemn the world...
17 For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.
18 He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
19 And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 
John 3:17-19 
We only have to look at the verse right before verse 17 to see why God sent His Son: 
        16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.         
John 3:16
40 And this is the will of Him who sent Me, that everyone who sees the Son and believes in Him may have everlasting life; and I will raise him up at the last day."
John 6:40
After mulling over feeling condemned and doing a Bible study, I am feeling much better because I was reminded:
23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
24 being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus,
Romans 3:23-24
1 There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.  Romans 8:1