Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. Let all that you do be done with love. I Corinthians 16:13, 14 NKJV

Sunday, December 31, 2017

First Things First

"As we need food to sustain our physical strength, so do we need Christ, the Bread from heaven, to sustain spiritual life and impart strength to work the works of God. As the body is continually receiving the nourishment that sustains life and vigor, so the soul must be constantly communing with Christ, submitting to Him and depending wholly upon Him." MB19



As we begin a new year- please join me as I try to do a better job of putting God first. This means that my quiet time will come before everything else.

My phone charges overnight on my night stand and in the morning before I even get out of bed, it is easy to reach over and check my phone. And then I can get totally distracted by checking this and that. But what I want to get back to is putting God first. My mind is fresh first thing in the morning. When the distractions of the world are put on hold, I am able to get so much more from my devotional time.

So please join me as we get back to the basics. Let us set aside time to study God's word and to pray and to be quiet so we can hear from God. And let us put that time first before everything else. When we put Him first the rest of the things seem to fall into place so much better.


"The words of God are the wellsprings of life. As you seek unto those living springs you will, through the Holy Spirit, be brought into communion with Christ. Familiar truths will present themselves to your mind in a new aspect, texts of Scripture will burst upon you with a new meaning as a flash of light, you will see the relation of other truths to the work of redemption, and you will know that Christ is leading you, a divine Teacher is at your side." MB20

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Sabbath Praise

Today I want to share one of my most recent favorite songs. I absolutely love this song - I think you will too as well. Enjoy! :O)





"O' Lord"

Whoa...

Though times it seems
Like I'm coming undone
This walk can often feel lonely
No matter what until this race is won
I will stand my ground where hope can be found
I will stand my ground where hope can be found

Oh, O'Lord O'Lord I know You hear my cry
Your love is lifting me above all the lies
No matter what I face this I know in time
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right

Whoa...

Your strength is found
At the end of my road
Your grace it reaches to the hurting
Still through the tears and the questioning why
I will stand my ground where hope can be found!
I will stand my ground where hope can be found!

Oh, O'Lord O'Lord I know You hear my cry
Your love is lifting me above all the lies
No matter what I face This I know in time
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right
(Right, so Right)
Make it Right,
(Right so Right)
Make it Right, Right

I will stand my ground
I will stand my ground

I will stand my ground where hope can be found!
I will stand my ground where hope can be found!

Oh! O'Lord O'Lord I know You hear my cry
Your love is lifting me above all the lies
No matter what I face this I know in time
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right
(Right, so Right)
Make it Right,
(Right so Right)
Make it Right, Right

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Make Believe or Faith

As I have struggled with this idea of God loving me personally, I have had some very interesting thoughts that at first I thought were absurd.

I have gone through times of feeling as thought God doesn't love me. And during those times I was frustrated with myself. I mean seriously, I am a Christian. I have sang "Jesus Loves Me" since I was a little bitty girl. Why am I questioning this? My thoughts went to it seems as if I have to pretend or make believe- like I have to manufacture the feelings of being loved by God. That just doesn't seem right. I just continued to work on processing these thoughts.

I spent some time looking up Bible verses on love - trying to understand God's love better. That is when I came across the verses in Ephesians 3 about the "width and length and depth and height" of God's love. These things helped by I kept mulling over these ideas.

I knew God loved me- why didn't I feel hat God loved me and then one day it hit me - this is where faith comes in! I am not having to manufacture God's love- I only have to believe the Word of God- that is faith.

There is a blessing to those who have not seen but believe and we find it in the book of John:

Now Thomas, called the Twin, one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came.
25 The other disciples therefore said to him, "We have seen the Lord." So he said to them, "Unless I see in His hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will not believe."

26 And after eight days His disciples were again inside, and Thomas with them. Jesus came, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, "Peace to you!"

27 Then He said to Thomas, "Reach your finger here, and look at My hands; and reach your hand here, and put it into My side. Do not be unbelieving, but believing."

28 And Thomas answered and said to Him, "My Lord and my God!"

29 Jesus said to him, "Thomas, because you have seen Me, you have believed. Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." 
~John 20:24-29                           
 
It's not make believe or fairy tales - it's faith! And even it is provided by God!
 
                                                             looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.                             ~Hebrews 12:2
 
Romans 12:3 tells us "...God has dealt to each one a measure of faith...."
 
So I don't have to make believe or pretend - I can choose to have faith. I can believe what the Word of God tells me.
 
16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
~John 3:16
 
                                For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come,
39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
~Romans 8:38-39
                           
 
I choose faith!
 
 

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Me Included!

Several weeks ago while our granddaughter was visiting, the weather was just warm enough for us to spend some time in the back yard. SweePea wanted to go explore the chicken yard. As we walked through the gate, we noticed a little sparrow on the ground- it tried to get away from us but obviously something was wrong with it. Just about that time Sweet Pea's Daddy came out side and she told him about the birdy. He came over and picked up a fallen leaf and used it to gently pick the bird up. He moved it's displaced wing into place and softly laid the birdy down.

SweetPea was fixing to have to go back to her Mother's but she wanted to make sure that the bird had food and water available to it. So the bird was laid near a watering can for the chickens and a handful of birdseed was laid on the ground in front of the bird.

Before we left we noticed the bird eat a bit. I was concerned because I didn't know if the injuries were something that the little birdy could come back from or not. I told SweetPea that I would check on the bird. A couple of hours later - I went outside to check on the birdy and it was gone. SweetPea was very happy to hear that.

The last week or two it seems that several sparrows have been hanging out near my bedroom window. It has really gotten the attention of our kitties. As I have watched them- I have wondered if one of these birds are the sparrow that we helped and if it is saying, "Thank you."

As I was watching the birds one day - these verses came to my mind:

"Are not two sparrows sold for a copper coin? And not one of them falls to the ground apart from your Father's will. 30  But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows."
Matthew 10:29-31
 
 
As I stood at the window watching the sparrows and thinking of the Bible passage - it suddenly struck me - if God cares about each sparrow- how can I be questioning His love for me. Just as God loves each sparrow - He loves each and every person, me included!
 
 
As I was looking up exactly where to find the scripture passage above - I found another one speaking of birds and God's love for us and I wanted to share it as well:
 
"Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 
                                                                                                         
26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
28 So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin;
29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31 Therefore do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'
32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. 
 
~Matthew 6:25-34                           


Tuesday, December 26, 2017

It was a quiet day

I hope you all have had a Merry Christmas! Our day was a very quiet day at home. SweetPea does not get here till the 28th so we will have our Christmas after that so she can be included. We did do a dinner for our boys today. So we were together for a bit till our youngest son had to go to work.

I worked on laundry and I made up a couple more diapers for SweetPea's dollies.
 
I also spent some time working on some blog posts. And I have an idea of a great series I will be doing starting in the new year. And I already have my WORD for 2018. This is unusual because in years past - I struggled with figuring out what the word would be. Some years I haven't even come up with a word.
 
Well I better close. I want to get another post typed up since I have a bit of free time right now.
 

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Call Back

Today I am sharing a devotional from my "Streams in the Desert" devotional. Blessing :O)

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This will be a time for you to serve as witnesses. —Luke 21:13

Life is a steep climb, and it does the heart good to have somebody “call back” and cheerily beckon us on up the high hill. We are all climbers together, and we must help one another. This mountain climbing is serious business, but glorious. It takes strength and steady step to find the summits. The outlook widens with the altitude. If anyone among us has found anything worth while, we ought to “call back.”

If you have gone a little way ahead of me, call back—
’Twill cheer my heart and help my feet along the stony track;
And if, perchance, Faith’s light is dim, because the oil is low,
Your call will guide my lagging course as wearily I go.

Call back, and tell me that He went with you into the storm;
Call back, and say He kept you when the forest’s roots were torn;
That, when the heavens thunder and the earthquake shook the hill,
He bore you up and held you where the very air was still.

Oh, friend, call back, and tell me for I cannot see your your face,
They say it glows with triumph, and your feet bound in the race;
But there are mists between us and my spirit eyes are dim,
And I cannot see the glory, though I long for word of Him.

But if you’ll say He heard you when your prayer was but a cry,
And if you’ll say He saw you through the night’s sin-darkened sky
If you have gone a little way ahead, oh, friend, call back—
’Twill cheer my heart and help my feet along the stony track.
Selected

Friday, December 22, 2017

Trying to Understand Love

I don't remember what all I have shared with you all. So just in case I have already shared about this with you all - I will try to keep this short.

I have no doubt in the world that God loves the world- where I struggle is on a personal level- does He love me. This has led me to study the Bible more. I am looking up verses about love. And I found this awesome passage in the Bible that I would like to share with you all. I thought it was beautiful.                                          
 
 
For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,                                                                                                            
15 from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,
16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory,
 to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man,
17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith;
 that you, being rooted and grounded in love,
18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints
 what is the width and length and depth and height--
19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge;
 that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Ephesians 3:14-19
 
 
I plan to get my Commentaries out and do some more research in this area. I just want a much better understanding of this concept. Its been a hard one for me to grasp.
 
I hope you all have a great weekend. :O)

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Lots to do

Sorry for not posting much this week. We have had a full schedule - with a lot of things planned. My Son had a court date yesterday - and we are thankful - so thankful that it is now behind us. My husband had a Dr appointment and then our granddaughter had a program at her school. All that was yesterday. Today I help with the food bank that our church does. It is a rainy day here in Texas- if you could please pray that between 4pm and 7pm that we could get a break in the rain. I don't really like to get out in the rain - but the most important part is that I hate to see these people who need help have to get out in the rain so much. And it just might make it kind of sloppy trying to get the food out to people. Anyway please be praying for a break in the rain. I am thankful for the rain because we have really needed it. A lot of this area is under a burn ban due to the dry conditions.

My husband has a follow up appointment with the surgeon on Thursday. By the way - please also be praying for my husband. He has been having some issues this week. He has a new medicine that I went and picked up for him last night that I am hoping will help relieve some of the discomfort. Anyway I would like him to be in better shape before he has to go back to work.

I am super late at getting Christmas cards out this year. I actually kind of thought about not sending any out this year. But I had found some really nice cards and so I just decided to kind of cut down the amount of cards I send. And that seems to be working better for me.

I have a quilt that I am working on this week for a Christmas gift. I know - why did you wait so long? Well it is actually for our son's girlfriends daughter and so I have not really had the time to get it going sooner since we just meant her a month or so ago. Anyway so that is what I am fixing to go work on.

I have to warn you - I may not be able to get back to steady posting until after the 9th of January. I will be caring for my granddaughter from Dec 28th - Jan 8 or 9th - I can't remember. Anyway I will be posting as I can but plan to get back to posting more regularly after the 9th of January.

I hope you all are doing well, staying dry and warm. :O)

Saturday, December 16, 2017

"The word trust is the heart word of faith."

Today I wanted to share a devotional from "Streams in the Desert" devotional- this one was what I read yesterday. May you be blessed. :O)

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Trust in the Lord and do what is right!

Settle in the land and maintain your integrity!

—Ps 37:3

 
 
The word trust is the heart word of faith. It is the Old Testament word, the word given to the early and infant stage of faith. The word faith expresses more the act of the will, the word belief the act of the mind or intellect, but trust is the language of the heart. The other has reference more to a truth believed or a thing expected.

Trust implies more than this, it sees and feels, and leans upon a person, a great, true, living heart of love. So let us “trust also in him,” through all the delays, in spite of all the difficulties, in the face of all the denials, notwithstanding all the seemings, even when we cannot understand the way, and know not the issue; still “trust also in him, and he will bring it to pass.” The way will open, the right issue will come, the end will be peace, the cloud will be lifted, and the light of an eternal noonday shall shine at last.


Trust and rest when all around thee
Puts thy faith to sorest test;
Let no fear or foe confound thee,
Wait for God and trust and rest.


“Trust and rest with heart abiding,
Like a birdling in its nest,
Underneath His feathers hiding,
Fold thy wings and trust and rest
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Friday, December 15, 2017

Essential Oils and the Brain

So today we are doing to look a little at the affects of essential oils to brain health.
 
The next two photos - are the same one - they are the only two that I was able to get. And neither is all that clear. I am hoping that you can click into the photo and see it better. If you are interested in a certain list - if you would leave me a comment- I will do my best to try to get figure out what they say and let you know.


 
 

Thursday, December 14, 2017

A Way of Living

So during my husbands stay at the hospital - being in the hospital for 12 of 15 days - I was not able to eat the way I enjoy eating. I did the best I could but I was not able to do as good as I usually try to eat. I did my best to get exercise as much as I could but I wasn't able to get in as much as I usually try to do.  And I have found my self up about 3 pounds. Thankfully I had gotten back down to my low weight- before this - so I just have to work on getting back to where I was. And then I am hoping to be able to lose some weight.
What I have figured out - is that this is a lifestyle - this is not a just lose weight and then do what I want. I already knew this - but I just realized that if I want to lose this weight and keep it off - I will have to always stay vigilant. I will have to stay on top of any weight gain. And do what I can to keep it at a minimum. That is what I did while Jason was in the hospital - I did my best to eat a good breakfast. The rest of meals - were not as healthy as I usually like to eat. And I did work to get in at least several good walks in. So I did continue to make small choices here and there towards my goals. I admit that I also made a few poor choices - when I bought a small bag of peanut M&M's.....or two.... :0( Not real happy with myself about that but that is just part of stress eating - sometimes you pick poor choices - especially when you don't have as many healthy choices.

Health - isn't a goal...it's a way of living~ isn't that the truth!!
 
And when we are thinking of taking care of ourselves - it is about more than just losing weight - it's about taking care of our selves - physically, mentally and spiritually. We need to be balanced. :o)
 

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

A Happy Surprise

This is a post I have wanted to share for quite some time. I just have not had the time to sit down and get it typed out.
 
When I offered to send books out - a fellow blogger accepted and suggested that we do a book trade of sorts. That sounded awesome. Little did I know that it would be so much more than just a book swap.
 
After a very demanding day - I got home and pulled a box out of my mail box. When I opened it up I found some lovely surprises!!  
She even crocheted a dishtowel and some wash clothes! Love them!!! 
I am not really into necklaces - but this is a necklace that I love!!! I love the nesting dolls on the placard and I love the beautiful detail on the beads. And the clasp is awesome - such a cool design.  
 
And this:
This is a beautiful Thomas Kinkade journal. I love it! I love Thomas Kinkade - In fact - he is probably one of my favorite artist. It's too bad that his live ended so young.
 
What a happy surprise this was! Thank you R! You made my day - and many days since when I have seen these lovely gifts! :O)


Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Recouping this week

Hello~ Sorry it has taken me a while to get back on here. I have just been very busy. And I am still feeling like I have a lot to do. I am going to take a few minutes later to sit down and write out what all I want to accomplish the rest of the week. That way I can prioritize the most important things to get done and work on those first.

Jason is still sore but he is very happy to be home. He has been running a fever - this morning was the first time that he was not running a temp. It has gone up a bit this evening, but that is normal.

The time that Jason was in the hospital was draining to me not only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. I think that is another reason why I have not been able to get on here and do more writing - I am still in recovery mode. It's during difficult times that we learn a lot about ourselves. That is what has happened - I had one of those moments like - "oh... that is the reason I am like that." And in the process of trying to figure out - what to do with the newly acquired information.

I am reading through an Elizabeth Elliot book - it is just the perfect book for me - it is a keeper for sure. I will be sharing a few little tidbits from it soon.

Hope you all are doing well. :O)

Sunday, December 10, 2017

We are home, thankfully

I've been trying for a couple of hours to get a page to come up so I could write out this post, but for some reason it would not bring up a post page. Thankfully now I have an opportunity to give an update. I am happy to report that my husband was discharged from the hospital today! I was so happy to hear this news. Last night I struggled with the repercussions of all the stress that I have been under for the past two weeks. 12 of the last 15 days my husband and I have spent at a hospital. It drains you. The stress of node ring what is going on is a lot and then there is the stress of trying to keep up with as much as I could here at home and the driving back and forth. Anyway this morning I began feeling the stress build up again, I was afraid that I would get the dreaded news of Jason having to stay in the hospital another night. And I came to a place of acceptance about it. But I am thrilled he was able to come home. He is running a fever so we are keeping an eye on him. Tomorrow we will be calling the Dr office to set up appointment.

I am so exhausted that even though it is only 8:45pm- I am really thinking I will finish this post up and then I will finish getting ready for bed. I need to recoup from the last several of weeks- they have been stressful. This week I want to get back into eating better- and I want to get more exercise in. I've done the best I could but last week I only got 2 walks and one workout with weight. Hopefully this week will be a more successful week for me.

Ok- I better close. Hoping I will be able to get back to posting soon. :0)

Friday, December 8, 2017

An over due update

 So sorry to be getting on here so late for an update. Thankfully Jason was able to have surgery today. He didn't make it back to his room till almost 3pm. The surgery went well. He was in the recover roomy twice as long as I had thought he would be and it really worried me. Even after he got back to his room-  His oxygen level were low causing him to have to be on oxygen for a while. He was able to get up walk around his unit a good amount. This evening he was able to eat a regular meal!! That is big news! It had been since Thanksgiving since he had been able to eat a regular meal.

 In the 8 days that my husband has been in the hospital this time- when I have left the hospital - there has been a wreck at one particular intersection two different days. I think that this intersection needs something done for safety. I've been very thankful that I did not get to that intersection any earlier than I did. Today I went by his wreck before the cops had made it out- that's how recent the wreck occurred. As I drove on by - I not only prayed for those involved, I also thanked the Lord for His protection.

I am exhausted and my battery is running low- so I will close for now. The plan is that every thing goes well that Jason will be able to come home tomorrow. I sure hope so!!!

Thank you for the prayers, they mean a lot. :0)

Thursday, December 7, 2017

surgery scheduled

We are still waiting to hear from the Dr. But we hav heard that Jasin will have surgery tbremove his gallbladder tomorrow morning at 9:45. Please keep him in your prayers. I'll try to get on here and update as soon as I'm able to do so tomorrow.
Thanks for the continued prayers. :0)

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

My Best Deal

So last week - in the middle of all of the hassles of my husband's medical problems I was able to make a quick stop at a local thrift store and I got a great deal! I didn't realize how good of a deal I got until I got home.

This book as a brand new price on it at $14.99
 
I thought they were going to charge me $1.99, but when I got home and was looking at the receipt - I noticed that I had only been charged .49 cents! What an awesome deal!! It has a lot of new pages in this book - along with pages for each month so you can plan what you will be doing in your garden each month. It really is a cute book. I can't wait to start planning our next garden. I am thinking this book will be an awesome resource for years to come.

What awesome deals have you guys gotten lately? I know you get good deals - cause I see your posts about them. Finding great deals is just another bright spot in life!! :O)

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Before you get confused and think I'm perfect....

So before you get confused by my last post and think I am perfect, I need to do a "rest of the story" like Paul Harvey used to do.

My husband had the scope done. Nothing conclusive from the scope... That was disappointing.  My poor husband is suffering and these tests all come back normal and it is frustrating to him. They have another test they want to do before they head in the "gallbladder is causing this issue" direction. Sadly it couldn't be scheduled till about noon time tomorrow. Another long day for my husband not getting to eat.

When his tray of food arrived- it was a hamburger and fries... Poor thing he is hungry and would love to eat and got frustrated. This time I wasn able to just stay quiet- I tried to be as nice as I could be but we did have words. I need to spend some more time in prayer and in my Bible so that tomorrow I can be more patient.

So the test will be run around noon. The positive for me is- I don't have to get everything done at home in a rush and then leave my house early to make sure I am here before test is run- like I have done for the last 3 days. The negative is that more than likely if a surgery is needed- which I think there is- it probably won't happen till Thursday. And one more day of my husband not getting to eat.

Please continue to pray. I know God is still listening- I got a text from my mother in law telling me of her looking for a couple of things and God telling her where to look. So He is still listening.... Just not answering in the way or in the time I'd like him to answer.


And continues...

Seven out of the last ten days I have spent at the hospital. It gets old, really old. What makes it even harder is that my husband is grumpy- which hurts my feelings.  My selfishness wants to say, "Hey, I hate coming to the hospital every day- the least you can do is be nice to me." What good would that do? Plus it's a very self-centered way to act. So I dab the tears away and ask God for an extra measure of patience and kindness and trust that He will comfort my heart.

I can't blame my husband though- it's been a whole week or more since he's gotten to really eat and feel decent. Over two weeks of throwing up and feeling bad. He is hungry and can't eat- I'd be grumpy too.


So the GI Dr. had a full schedule on Monday so the scope was not done. My husband continues to get very nauseous and throw up or at least dry heave any time he tries to eat. Poor thing he is very hungry and really wants to eat but feels like crap if he does. So he is in a lose/lose situation. No matter what he does he is miserable.

So the scope will be done this am. We were told 9:30am- but it's 9:15am as I type and they have not gotten him from his room yet so who knows. Please continue to pray for answers and comfort. Thank you so much.

So at 9:25 we found out that they are running behind and so it will be an hour to an hour and a half- so another day of hurry up... Only to wait.... So test will be closer to 11:00am area.

Monday, December 4, 2017

The Questions Continue

So we had been hoping for more testing to be done on Sunday but the Dr on duty is a Dr that we know caused some major ongoing health issues for another family member - so we had to pass on having that Dr do the test and wait until today. We are hoping that they can get the scope done - and the Dr also said they may want to do a colonoscopy- so maybe that will be done as well.

All I know is that we want answers. J tried to eat a couple of times - he is hungry - poor thing hasn't been able to hardly eat anything at all since Thursday. And of course not too long after eating he was throwing up again. It is frustrating to see the ones you love suffer. He has suffered long enough really. Something needs to give.

Please continue to pray for him - that we will get answers and that they can fix what ever the problem is. Thank you so much.

Sunday, December 3, 2017

The Saga Continues....

I was gonna wait till later to share this post but I wanted to post and ask for prayers - that the Drs can figure out what the problem is. Spending this much time at the hospital is frustrating to both my husband and me. Thankfully there are some positives about the hospital we are at this time. 
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 So first all I need to say a few things - thankfully we have Jason at a different hospital this time. This one is not down town - a big plus as the hospital he is at now is one half the distance as the down town hospital.
Another wonderful plus - is that at this hospital - you don't have to pay to park. When a loved on is in the hospital - you already have extra expenses - bills, food, and then at this hospital - you have to pay to park - $1.00 an hour or $5.00 total. And to me - that is annoying- especially when you  are leaving the hospital  without any answers.


As an added bonus this hospital has a walking trail around it. With these lovely benches and Bible verses along the path

There is lot of "Faith" needed along the journey of life. It is hard to let go and let God. He is in control - we may not understand, we jut have to leave the problems in God's hands and have faith He will take care of it.

"Hope" is another gift from God that I am thankful for. Life throws us a lot of trials, but we can put our hope in Him!  


He also gives us strength and "endurance" for the journey of life!  

"Joy" and "Peace" are a couple more wonderful gift that we get from God.
These things come as a result of a personal relationship with Him.  



The First Hospital Visit in our Saga....

So last week I shared about how we have had a rough week. A rough week that started off with us losing our sweet Wally. Well now I have time for part two of the story - the story that is still continuing as I type this up.
 
This part of the story actually starts the Monday before Thanksgiving. My husband started feeling sick on Monday, in fact, he had to pull over and throw up on his way to work A couple of weeks before I had been sick and part of mine was feeling nauseous - so we didn't think much of it. He continued on going to work for the next couple of days. Feeling lousy and throwing up here and there. This sickness just held on....
 
On Saturday night his chest started hurting. We gave him aspirin and also a zantac. We took his blood pressure and everything seemed alright. So he decided to wait on going to the ER. Sunday he felt even lousier and decided to go to the ER. They decided to admit him and took him to a hospital downtown.
 
At the hospital - they followed what I call and one track tunnel vision protocol - that involved a stress test to see if it was his heart. Monday he was nauseous and throwing up and they basically gave him prescription for Zofran and sent him home. Problem not found... problem not fixed.
 
While at the hospital on Monday - my sister suggested I try to get a walk in. After my lunch in the cafeteria - it was such a beautiful day that I decided to go for a walk around the block. I had never walked in this area - downtown- but decided I needed the exercise and sunshine would do me good. He was in a room without a window. 

I saw a few neat sights that I took photos of to share:
 
 
And I discovered something that will be helpful to me in 6 months.
At my last visit to my oncologist, I was told that they would be moving soon - and if I am correct - I think this could be the new location:
So now back to our story:
 
He continued to be nauseous and throw up.

Thankfully he was able to get in to see his Gastroenterologist- and he set up an ultrasound of his abdomen. That was done Wed. By Thursday we found out that the ultrasound came back normal. But we had been told that sometimes gallbladder problems don't show up on this test and that if nothing showed up they would send him for a gallbladder function test.  The only problem was that the soonest they could get him in was Wed. And he was miserable - nauseous most of the time and throwing up most everything he ate. He could not go on like this... So on Friday I took him to the ER. And I will have to have that post another day.

Please be praying that answers are found as to why he is so nauseous and throwing everything up. Thank you so much.
 

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Beloved Names of God...series.."Living Stone"

"Living Stone"

 "To whom coming, as unto a living stone, disallowed indeed of men,
but chosen of God, and precious."
1 Peter 2:4 KJV
 
  • Name of God the Son
  • Jesus is referred to as a "living stone" twice in the KJV.
  • The living stone is a reference to the fulfillment of the prophecy which talked about the arrival of the Chief Cornerstone.
  • Peter was encouraging Christians not to be distracted by the ways of the world but to cling instead to "the Word." Jesus as people in previous times had God's promise that He would send them a "precious cornerstone"  (Isaiah 28:16 NIV), so the people of Peter's time had seen this stone arrive and live! They also saw Him live, die - and live again!
With the Cornerstone of Jesus in place, Peter encouraged those who heard his message- both then and now- to play their parts in the spiritual building that rises from that wonderful foundation. Ancient Sparta boasted that it needed no city walls; each of its soldiers was a brick in its defenses. In much the same way, you and I get to join the Living Stone as building blocks in His lively and living church.
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Come back next week when we will look at "Eternal Spirit"



Friday, December 1, 2017

Back to the Basics

As I mentioned in yesterdays post, Friday was my birthday. And you know what that means.... it is time for a 50 by 50 update. July of 2016 I began a new journey. A journey to lose 50 pounds by the time I turned 50 years old and to not only lose the weight but to keep it off. I have lost 50 pounds before- but I haven't kept it off. It takes a lot of work and determination for me to lose 50 pounds. And every since my hysterectomy in 2013, I have been finding it even harder to lose weight.

I have lost 37 pound, however over the last several weeks with getting sick and not feeling good enough to exercise and then having my granddaughter for a week and feeding my family and not having as much time to fix my healthier meals _ I actually went up 2-3 pounds, but I have been working towards losing that weight and I am down to only 1 pound above my lowest weigh in now! And I plan to lose that other pound - if not more before the Christmas dinners begin. Hoping if I just work at keeping it off at least till the beginning of the new year - I can begin to lose weight again. I have been on a plateau long enough now. It feels like forever.

I have already spent time thinking about all of the healthy strategies that I have been using in order to lose weight and I have been getting back to the basics.

Setting my goal for long term has really made this a doable goal for me. I am so thankful that I did. I had been told that it was harder to lose weight during menopause and afterwards, and they certainly were right. Giving myself plenty of time has made it possible for me to lose the weight. And not give up. I have gotten discouraged especially over the last couple of months that I have felt like I am sitting still, but I am not giving up. I have come too far to give up and go back.

Sometimes while we are working towards our goals we get off track, but the key to reaching our goals is to get right back on track as soon as we can. Decide today what are some things you can do today to take better care of yourself and then implement them into your day. You are worth taking care of!

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Blessed Hope

Friday was my birthday and I had every intention of spending a few minutes to write up a post. But the day ended up being filled to the rim.

I ended up having to go to a funeral on my birthday. My friend that I have told you all about - the one who also had endometrial cancer passed away Tuesday morning and Friday was her funeral. Once treatment was finished she had 3 months till her first check up in July when they did a scan and found several tumors. Even at that point I think we all felt she would have more time. Four months later she is gone. Asleep in Jesus, waiting for the day that He will come again and take her home.

                                 For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of an archangel, and with the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first.
17 Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord.
18 Therefore comfort one another with these words. 
1 Thessalonians 4:16-18
                           
 
The very next time she opens her eyes she will see Jesus!! I'm so thankful that we have this hope!
Jesus promised:
 
1 "Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.
2 In My Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.
3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. 
John 14:1-3
                                                                             
These verses- by the way - were my friend Karen's favorite verses. I hope they comfort your heart as they do mine.
 
Sin, sadness, and death are a part of this sinful world but one day soon, Jesus will come again!
 
  4 And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."         
Revelation 21:4
 
For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men,
12 teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly in the present age,
13 looking for the blessed hope and glorious appearing of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ,
         14 who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every lawless deed and purify for Himself His own special people, zealous for good works.
Titus 2:11-14
          
Praise the LORD!
 

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

It all started on Thursday....

So sorry it has taken me so long to get back here to get posts typed up. It has been a rough week. We will start at the beginning of the rough week.

Thursday morning started like every other morning. After quiet time it was time to take care of my animals. Since it was Thanksgiving and I was hosting a big thanksgiving dinner at our church, I was distracted. I let our kittens out of the sunroom, where they spend their nights and proceeded to get my bowl of kitchen scraps to take out to my chickens. As I got to the back door, which is in the sunroom- out of the corner of my eye - I caught a sight that stopped me dead in my tracks. our Wally was laying on the middle platform of the climbing toy. My heart knew instantly that something was wrong. Wally is the most loving cat and for him not to come and love me is totally out of his character.

Wally was dead. My husband and I have never lost a pet like that before. Every cat that we have lost in the past has gotten ill and we've had to take them to the vet and decide that it was best to put them down. It always hurts, but this situation has been different. Wally was only 1 1/2 years old and had seemed totally find the day before - and then he was gone.

Many tears were shed and I ended up having to reapply my make up before heading to the church to get our Thanksgiving meal going.

Our hearts are heavy as we go through the grieving period. Please keep up in your prayers for that and the rest - which will be a rest of the story told on another day. See you all tomorrow.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Still here... Barely....

Just checking in for a few minutes. Sorry I don't have more time right now, but I wanted to let you know we're still alive. We have had several unexpected events happen since I've posted. I have a couple of posts written out- will need to get them typed up and posted as soon as I can.

It's been a stressful day and I am super tired so I better get off of her and get to bed. Will up date as soon as I can.

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Be Thankful...Not just in November but all year round

If you are on Facebook then you know that many times people use the month of November to share what they are thankful for each day. In the past I have even participated in this practice.

I think it is very important for us to be thankful, but I don't think it should be limited to a month out of the year. I do think that this practice on Facebook helps get us into the mindset of being thankful and looking around to see what we are thankful for. And maybe once the month of November is done we will be in a habit of looking for blessings in our lives.

 
It is the will of God for us to give thanks!  


Did you notice in verse 2 it says that people will be ungrateful in the list talking about the last days?

When we are going through hard times and we choose to continue to praise God - this is called a sacrifice of praise- and we are called to "continually offer the sacrifice of praise to God"!


The Bible says in Psalms that the LORD daily loadeth us with benefits! Every day there are blessing - some days it may be harder than others for us to find them - but if we look we will find them!

I think this week - the week of Thanksgiving would be a great time for us to take a little extra time to see how we can be more grateful throughout the entire year.

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

An Extra Blessing Added

Several years ago I discovered Danskin exercise pants - the ones that have pockets! I like wearing these when I do my workouts at home. I love having the pockets so I can keep my phone on me and get credit for the movements on my health app. on my phone.

The only problem is that since I have lost weight my exercise pants are too big. I have been wearing them, but I have to pull them way up and do my best to tie them tight enough to hold them up. So I have been on the lookout for a smaller pair for a few months. I have a pair of them in capris that fit great but I knew going into the cooler months I would need a pair of pants.

One of the problems with shopping in thrift stores is that when you are looking for specific items you have to be patient. Sometimes it takes a while. But the reward of patience is when you find what you are looking for and you are able to get it for a much lower price then retail.

My plan had been when I got done with my oncology appointment, I would hit up several thrift stores up in that area. Well since I wasn't feeling good- I chose a small store closest to my Dr's office to visit. And it turned out to be my lucky day!! I found a dark gray pair of Danskin exercise pants with pockets!! I was so thankful that I found them. And I also found this beautiful top that you can see in the photo:
As the time rolled on by I felt worse and worse and decided it would be best for me to go on home to rest. Which was a good decision because I ended up feeling lousy and running a fever most of the afternoon.

Ever since I have started looking for specific items- it has given me more of a chance to be grateful. I can better recognize the blessing that God provided a need. And that is just an extra blessing that is added!

Monday, November 20, 2017

Useless....I think not

Last week I saw the following on Facebook and wanted to share it here - just in case there was someone here who needed to heart his. I think that many of us have struggled with the feelings of being useless. If you have felt that way - read the following and I hope you are blessed and have a renew hope of how valuable you are in God's plans! You may not always recognize the value because we live in a sinful world - one in which the world's values are much different than what God sees as valuable. Don't be discouraged. God has plans for you and your live. Allow Him to guide you. :O)

Continue On
By:  Roy Lessin

A woman once fretted over the
usefulness of her life.  She feared she was
wasting her potential being a devoted wife and
mother.  She wondered if the time and
energy she invested in her husband and
children would make a difference.

At times she got discouraged because so
much of what she did seemed to go unnoticed
and unappreciated.  "Is it worth it?" she often
wondered.  "Is there something better that
I could be doing with my time?"

It was during one of these moments of
questioning that she heard the still small voice
of her Heavenly Father speak to her heart.
"You are a wife and mother because that is
what I have called you to be.  Much of what
you do is hidden from the public eye.  But I
notice.  Most of what you give is done without
remuneration.  But I am your reward.

Your husband cannot be the man
I have called him to be without your support.
Your influence on him is greater than you
think and more powerful than you
will ever know.  I bless him through your service
and honor him through your love. 
Your children are precious to Me.  Even more
precious than they are to you.  I have
entrusted them to your care to raise for Me.
What you invest in them is an offering to Me.

You may never be in the public spotlight.
But your obedience shines as a bright light
before Me.  Continue on.  Remember
you are My servant.  Do all to please Me."

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Expectations can lead to Disappointment

I was reminded again this week that expectations can lead to disappointments. And the truth is that usually they do.

When I finished my cancer treatment, I was told that I would have to go in form check ups every 3 months and then I would graduation to every six months then to yearly visits. Well some how I got the idea that at this last visit to my oncologist that I would graduate to the next level - yearly check ups. So imagine my disappointment when I was told to come back in 6 months. And then I will have another 6 month check up. If at that point I am all clear- I will transition back to a regular gyn. for my yearly check ups.

So yes, I am a bit disappointment. The Dr said everything looked good. And my ca-125 number has come down. Several other numbers are elevated or much lower than usual and I am hoping that has to do with infection that I am fighting.

I feel bad whining about having to go back to the oncologist in 6 months when I have friends who are back in treatment.

On my way to the oncologist, I drove by the road that leads to my friends house and I almost started to cry. On the 9th of November she was admitted to the Hospice House and I thought about how hard it must have been for her - knowing she would never see her home again. I have a lot to be thankful for. So although I was a bit disappointed, I am choosing to look at the things I have to be thankful for. I don't think we think on these things enough.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Beloved Names of God..series "Fountain of Living Waters"

"Fountain of Living Waters"

 
"For my people have committed two evils;
they have forsaken me the fountain of living waters,
and hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns
that can hold no water."
Jeremiah 2:13 KJV
 
  • Name of God the Father
  • God is referred to as the "fountain of living waters" twice in the KJV.
  • If anyone doubted that one flowed from the other, God describes Himself here and "the fountain of living waters." In the book of John, Jesus tells the Samaritan woman that He is the One from whom she can drink living water (4:10).
  • Through Jeremiah, God vents His frustration and amazement that His people have, even after a history of disastrous consequences, once again turned to false gods.
 
Imagine God's frustration when people started turning to man-made gods and idols- again! Everything man-made fails. Even the water-collecting cisterns, hewn from solid rock, would occasionally crack.   
 
Jesus and the Holy Spirit are life-sustaining "waters" that need no cisterns. God is the fountain from which those waters flow. None of them are man-made!
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Next week we look at "Living Stone"
 
 
 

Friday, November 17, 2017

Hello .....

So a little update. Last week end I got sick, by Monday I went to the Dr and was put on antibiotics. On Wed I had to go see the oncologist. She said everything looked good - it will be several days before I get lab results back. I am still not feeling good. This is a tough bug that I have.

I have several blog posts that I have written up I just have not had a chance to get on the computer to get them typed up. I am hoping to get a chance to do that later today.

Our son gets his daughter this evening for the week. And I will be taking care of her. So I will be quite busy. I just wanted to let you all know that just in case I am not able to get the blog posts typed up that I have ready to go. If I don't get to them later- I will get them written up and posted as soon as I can. But I just have a lot of things going on plus not feeling good is making it harder for me to get things done.

I hope you all are doing well. Take care. Hope to check  back in later. :O)

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Looking for Specific Items

Several months ago my sister told me of a blogger who had found an army jacket or utility jacket(not sure exactly what they are called) at a thrift store for one dollar!! What?! Well I didn't hold onto unrealistic idea's that I would find that good of a deal, but I did decide to start looking for a jacket like it for myself.

I had already noticed the jackets every where. People around me wearing them, people on commercials and on tv shows wearing this awesome jacket. I think this is a style jacket that is kind of like a classic like denim jackets. And whether they are in fashion at a particular time or not - they can be a persons style. So really they don't go out of style - if it is your style.
 
Anyway so any time I made it to a thrift store or goodwill - I would check out there jacket section.
And lo and behold I found one at a little whole in the wall thrift store in a town nearby!!! And the best part - is that it is black! I love the army green ones! I love that color, but truthfully this black one will be more practical for me. Now if I find an army green one for a good deal - I would probably still buy it, but I am perfectly content with my great find!
 
No - I didn't get it for a dollar. But I did get it for $3.00 - which in my opinion is a great deal!! :O)
 
What great deals have you found lately? I would love to hear about them?

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

A Milestone - Four Years

Today is my oncology checkup appointment. To be honest - I have been a bit more emotional lately. This usually happens around this time. But this year I have more reasons to be emotional about it. I have two friends who have had reoccurrences. One of them is going through treatment again, and the other one....she has been admitted to a hospice house... not expected to live very much longer. Her cancer is very aggressive. My heart breaks for her family. It could be me. She too, was diagnosed with endometrial cancer- but she has a combo of two different kinds and the combo and being very aggressive has made it move so very fast.

I also need prayers because earlier this week I got sick. I was able to get in to see the Dr Monday afternoon and have been on meds ever since- I was hoping to be feeling better by now so I had not rescheduled. These appt are made 6 months in advanced and I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to get an apt this year and since we have meant our first deductible for the year I would not have to pay the entire $158. For the appt like I would have to do if the appt was put off till next year. Anyway so now I'm committed to go and want to feel decent enough to go and also am praying that I'm not contagious- since I've been on meds for a few days.

Anyway I would sure appreciate prayers. Prayers that if there is any reason what so ever that I might need a ct scan that my Dr will order one. We have meant our deductible for the year so we would not have to pay for the whole entire testing cost. But I don't want to spend money unnecessarily, so I don't want to just ask for a ct scan. Anyway I am putting my trust in God - He is in control.

Oh and a bit of positive news here - this will mark my 4th year since my surgery! Isn't that awesome?!

Thanks so much for the prayers - they mean a lot! :O)

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Being at the Right Place and the Right Time!

I was going to title this post - "Some Teacher's Are Dumb" but I didn't want to insult anyone - who may not take the time to read the post and see what it was really about.
 
So last week I went to a local Goodwill store. And after I looked through clothes and did not find anything, I decided to look through the rows of other stuff. Well I just happened to be at the right place and the right time. A worker placed the following on the shelf right in front of where I was looking!!!!
I quickly noticed that this was a piece of Tupperware. Now some people call any plastic storage container - "Tupperware" but that is not what I am talking about here I am talking about the real Tupperware which, by the way, I love!!
 
I picked it up and looked at the price tag...$1.99 - just the Tupperware container was worth way more than that - then I noticed it had stuff inside. This looked as if it were a gift from a student to a teacher - with a lot of goodies inside! 
Highlighters, pens, markers, red pencils, a pencil, stickers, post it note pad, and candy - only problem - this apparently just sat around for a long time because the candy was not good. Oh well. I didn't need the candy anyway. I was so thrilled with my great deal!!
 
I was almost as excited for this good deal as another great deal I have found recently, but I don't have time to tell you about it- you will have to come back later for that post. See ya soon!! :O)