11th Month Update....very late

 Hello, my friends :O) I hope you all are doing well. Well, here I am several months late and giving an update. On November 22nd I reached the 11th month of my new lifestyle. And I had really meant to get on here and do an update, but life got in the way. So, I am here now to share how the last month went and give a peak into how month 12 is going.

I am happy to report that I lost 5 pounds for the update that I am so late at giving. And with those 5 pounds it is a total of 66 pounds lost. So that month went very well. But you may be asking well how is month 12 going? Hmmm ... not so well. 

I have always thought of childhood trauma as dramatic things, you know like getting beat, or locked in a closet or even much worse, but I am learning that there are many faces to what causes trauma. My trauma was not a horrible event, but it did cause a lot of emotional distress for me. And for many years I didn't have to face it but over the last couple of months somethings in my life have reverted back to like what I went through when I was 11 and 12 years old and it has brought back many of those same feelings. I went through some emotionally complex things, but I was so very young I had no idea how to process them. Even now it has been challenging. But the best part about dealing with these things now is that I now understand that I can turn these worries, concerns and anxieties over to God and I can trust Him to get me through whatever may happen. I serve a big God and He can work things out. 

I have mentioned this before, but it seems like ever since I surrendered to God and changed my lifestyle, I have faced all sorts of challenges. In years past many of these things would have thrown me off the wagon. So just the fact that I am still choosing to take care of my health is a miracle in and of itself. But because I have had so many things thrown at me over the last year, it has given me ample opportunities to work through my issues. And to work through them without using food as a comfort. It has meant sitting with the painful feelings sometimes. 

The extra stress in my live right now (there is a list, but I won't bore you with it right now) apparently my body doesn't feel safe to release the weight because I have not veered off course. I have steadily continued to make good, healthy choices in what I eat. I have done my best to get good amount of rest. I have been drinking my water and getting exercise. And today at my weigh in I was .1 oz less than last week. There is your peek into the next month. lol... Anyway - I truly felt like I deserved a bigger loss then that, but it is a loss. And I choose to look at it like this- this time of year many people gain weight around the holidays. I know in the past I have gained weight around the holidays. But this year is going to be different. January 1st I will weigh less than I did on December - it may not be by a huge amount, but it will be less. 

So, I have lost a total of 66 pounds. I would really like to lose another 45 pounds or so. It could possibly take me another year to reach this goal but the longer I work to reach this goal- the more set in stone i will be. I have placed it all in God's hands. When it is time for this weight to finish coming off He ill make it happen. But in the meantime, I will do my part which is to follow in God's footprints. :O) 

Thank you so much for your patience with me Hopefully I will check in near the 22nd for another check in. :O)