Me...today

 

 

 

Here is me today.

Can you tell my hair is slowly growing.

 

Well I was wanting to get my yard mowed in order to get ready for our visit with our granddaughter for the month of July - but our riding lawn mower has a tire that has been losing air. Well I have had to air it up each time before I want to mow. And I thought today would be the same as other days- it may take longer but I eventually get the tire aired up and can get the job done. But not today- apparently the tire has a big crack in it and will not hold air. So it is a no go with getting my yard mowed today.

 

So I took advantage of my "new" reel push mower- and I got it out of the garage and I worked on an area in the hard that is hard to mow with the riding lawn mower. It did a really good job. It will need to have the blades lowered a bit and the blades will need to get sharpened but over all I am very pleased with it. It helped me to be able to get at least a good section of the back yard done - so that I am one step closer to being ready for the grandbabies visit.

 

Anyway I just wanted to post a photo since I had not posted one last week. And wanted to let you know that my $20.00 reel push mower was one of the best bargains I have gotten!!

 

Now I am fixing to head to Aldi's to get some groceries - wish me luck - first time with no hat.

Have a wonderful day! :O)

And Then the Next Step

Sometimes our journey seems to go slowly, but other times it seems to pick up pace. And that is what has happened to me. For the last few weeks I knew that it was coming to the time that I would have to just lay the hat down and go out into my life just the way I was. I was tired of wearing the hat or wig- ever so often. They are both hot and the wig is itchy. This week ends camping trip took me to a place that no one knew me - and it gave me more confidence to take off the hat and ease myself into the newest part of my adventure.

Not only was yesterday the first day that I went without a hat - all day long. But it was also the day that I decided no more hiding. I posted this photo of me on facebook:

 Although my hair is a bit longer - I decided that the next step would be to share the photo. That way people seeing me with my new do would be more on my terms. And there is a freedom that I feel - that I did not feel before.

I did not choose this "adventure" but I can choose to be more comfortable on this "adventure" by moving forward in the healing process. I feel happier today and more grateful. I feel like I have overcome another fear and it feels good.

I shared the photo on a private group on Facebook for Women who are fighting Uterine Cancer
and one of the ladies had this to day about when she decided no more hats and no more scarves:

"It was the best most freeing experience I had.

  It was a moment I won't forget.

  It was like I thumbed my nose at cancer

and said "I'm done with you". "

Couldn't have said it better. Sometimes you just have to take the next step and you will be happy when you do. Not saying it will be easy - but saying it will be worth it.

Now I need to get off of here and get my yard mowed and ready for our granddaughters visit! :O)

Taking the Next Step

This week end my husband and I went camping. As we were on our way - I decided I was tired of wearing my hat - so I took it off. And only put it on when we went in to places and such. But most of the time driving I had it off. I felt a little protected by being in the vehicle - so not really "seen." Over the week end I wore it when I around people, until Sabbath evening. I had been out at the dock with my husband while he was fishing. Then I decided to go back to the RV. It was starting to get dark. I had already walked to the RV and back to get something that he had left at the RV. Anyway while I was walking back to the RV - I decided to walk the long way, because I wanted more exercise. I was getting hot and sweaty and finally decided to take off the hat. So I did - and walked the rest of the way back to the trailer. It felt good to have air getting to my head. I continued to sweat but at least I was letting air to get to my head.

By the time I got back to the RV- I decided that I was tired of wearing the hat. It will more than likely be several more months before my hair is at a length that would appear to be a regular hair style that a woman would chose to get and I am not willing to go all summer long wearing a hat. Hats are hot.

This morning when I got up - I decided I am going to do my best to go without a hat. I lucked out because the people that were camping directly across from us - were gone by the time we got ready to hook up to leave. When we got to the dump station - I got out - without my hat and took the trash to the trash can and then proceeded to help my husband with the rest of the stuff.

After we got home- I wanted to weed eat around where we normally park the RV so I had him wait a bit while I weed eated the area. Then I went to the front yard and weed eated around a few things- to make it look pretty when I actually mow our yard tomorrow- all the while- not wearing hat.

Later in the evening, we had a few errands to run in a town nearby- and I did not wear that hat at all. In fact, that time I did not even take the hat with me.

Now I know that each time I go to a place that I normally visit - it will be a bit challenging - Especially that first time for each place. And I am guessing that it will be a bit more challenging to go places by myself. But I am going to pray for courage in order to do so. Because I am tired of wearing a hat. I am tired of being hotter because of the hat. I am tired of the time that it is taking in order for my hair to grow. I had hoped to have more hair by now. But since I don't - then I just need to suck it up and just get on with life.

Anyway since I have been sharing this "adventure" with you all - I thought I would share this next step.

I am pretty tired - we stayed up way too late this week end and I need to get myself off to bed and try to catch up. In just a couple of days I will be taking care of my granddaughter all day long. So I need to be rested up at least a decent amount before that starts.

I hope you all are doing well. I am doing well. :o)

The Lord hath sent strength for thee

Posting this especially for two friends who have sons who is needing lots of prayers right now for health issues. 


The Lord hath sent strength for thee (Ps.68.28, PBV).

The Lord imparts unto us that primary strength of character which makes everything in life work with intensity and decision. We are "strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man." And the strength is continuous; reserves of power come to us which we cannot exhaust.
"As thy days, so shall thy strength be"—strength of will, strength of affection, strength of judgment, strength of ideals and achievement.

"The Lord is my strength" to go on. He gives us power to tread the dead level, to walk the long lane that seems never to have a turning, to go through those long reaches of life which afford no pleasant surprise, and which depress the spirits in the sameness of a terrible drudgery.

"The Lord is my strength" to go up. He is to me the power by which I can climb the Hill Difficulty and not be afraid.

"The Lord is my strength" to go down. It is when we leave the bracing heights, where the wind and the sun have been about us, and when we begin to come down the hill into closer and more sultry spheres, that the heart is apt to grow faint. I heard a man say the other day concerning his growing physical frailty, "It is the coming down that tires me!"

"The Lord is my strength" to sit still. And how difficult is the attainment! Do we not often say to one another, in seasons when we are compelled to be quiet, "If only I could do something!"

When the child is ill, and the mother stands by in comparative impotence, how severe is the test! But to do nothing, just to sit still and wait, requires tremendous strength.

"The Lord is my strength!" "Our sufficiency is of God" (2 Cor. 3:5. from The Silver Lining

It's about Hair....

 

Hello- I think I am doing better today. And it just might be because of a dream I had last night.

I dreamed that I had beautiful, bouncy almost shoulder length hair. I had just got done styling it- I was brushing through the back of it a few times. And then I lightly sprayed some hair spray on my hair. What an awesome dream- for a girl who has had no hair to speak of for the past 5-6 months!

 

It gave me hope. Even though it seems like it is taking for ever - I will one day have pretty hair again. And will not have to wear a hat. And that will be great. It has been running in the upper 80's to the 90's for the past couple of weeks and I am trying to work up the courage to go without my hat out in public- I just have not gotten there yet.

 

I shared my dream with the ladies at my Fighting Uterine Cancer Facebook page. And one of the ladies shared this photo:

 

I thought it was hilarious and just made my day even brighter! So glad for a group of ladies who know what I am going through - because many of them have gone through it or are going through it.

 

One more thing that I wanted to share with you all is some shampoo.

A lady in my group says she uses this and it has helped her hair to grow.
Well I went by Walmart today - and lo and behold- they had bottles that had 50% free - so I got double the shampoo for my money! Yay! I love a good deal.

 

I am glad it is a big bottle - almost 30 ounces cause I am gonna need a lot of shampoo to help this hair grow.... lol.

 

Oh one more cute funny that I wanted to share with you all.

 

Man #1- I gonna call you cilantro
Man #2 - Why ?
Man #1 - because you ruin everything... 

 This was a commercial that I heard on TV today and I thought it was funny.  :O)

 

Anyway I just thought that was funny and wanted to share it here with you all.

Hope you are all doing good. :o 

Dare to trust Him...

This is my devotional for today. I really liked the paragraph that is underlined. And the poem at the end is great too.
From "Streams in the Desert"
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"Speak unto the children of Israel, that they go forward"

Exodus 14:15

Imagine, O child of God, if you can, that triumphal march! The excited children restrained from ejaculations of wonder by the perpetual hush of their parents; the most uncontrollable excitement of the women as they found themselves suddenly saved from a fate worse than death; while the men followed or accompanied them ashamed or confounded that they had ever mistrusted God or murmured against Moses; and as you see those mighty walls of water piled by the outstretched hand of the Eternal, in response to the faith of a single man, learn what God will do for His own.
Dread not any result of implicit obedience to His command; fear not the angry waters which, in their proud insolence, forbid your progress. Above the voices of many waters, the mighty breakers of the sea, "the Lord sitteth King for ever."

A storm is only as the outskirts of His robe, the symptom of His advent, the environment of His presence.

Dare to trust Him; dare to follow Him! And discover that the very forces which barred your progress and threatened your life, at His bidding become the materials of which an avenue is made to liberty.
--F. B. Meyer

Have you come to the Red Sea place in your life,

Where, in spite of all you can do,

There is no way out, there is no way back,

There is no other way but through?

Then wait on the Lord with a trust serene

Till the night of your fear is gone;

He will send the wind,

He will heap the floods,

When He says to your soul, "Go on."

And His hand will lead you through—clear through--

Ere the watery walls roll down,

No foe can reach you, no wave can touch,

No mightiest sea can drown;

The tossing billows may rear their crests,

Their foam at your feet may break,

But over their bed you shall walk dry shod

In the path that your Lord will make.

In the morning watch, 'beneath the lifted cloud,

You shall see but the Lord alone,

When He leads you on from the place of the sea

To a land that you have not known;

And your fears shall pass as your foes have passed,

You shall be no more afraid;

You shall sing His praise in a better place,

A place that His hand has made.

--Annie Johnson Flint

This and That Tuesday

Well blogger is still limiting how many postings I see- to one. ugh.... I hope they get it fixed soon. It just makes it so much easier for me to keep up with all of you.

Well yesterday morning- we woke up to a big line of rain and storms moving through the area. Thankful that the worst of it did not hit till a while after my husband left for work. I was so thankful for the rain- we badly need it, but not so happy with a bit of damage that it left in it's path.

Once the rain had cleared out of here- I noticed first of all that the lid to our chicken feed had gotten blown off. This is the first time it has ever done that. We had enough feed in that bucket for about 2 more weeks. So I was frustrated at the waste of money. Then I noticed that our corn patch had gotten some damage from the high winds. Most of the patch was leaning over by the time the storm was done. Oh and to tell you how very strong the winds were - this patch is right up against a wooden fence- and the wind was so strong that it still affected the corn like that.

For some reason yesterday was an emotional day for me. I tried to get a photo of  myself to share- but did not get any that looked decent- and that may have contributed to my mood as well. Probably need to be praying that God will help me like what I see in the mirror. It really does help. It helped me accept my bald head, the first time I saw it, easier than I thought I would. It's just that although, I am very thankful for the growth I have had- I was so hoping to be further along on this path back to having normal hair- the kind of hair I can wear out in public without thinking that everyone is looking at me. But it's just not going as fast as I would like it to go.

Yesterday I did get some of the projects in my sewing room done. I had a couple of pairs of pants that I wanted to make into shorts or capris for SweetPea. My son will have her for the month of July so I am trying to make sure we have enough clothes here for her. And I had found some pants that I really thought were cute but wanted to have them for this summer so I cut them off and hemmed them. And I had a couple of others that I wanted to make shorts out of. I sure hope that I did not get them too short. Did not have her here to try them on her once I was done. So I will have to wait and see.

Well it is hot and humid here today - it has been for a while. I went on a walk with my Mom and got very sweaty. Was so glad that I had a wash cloth in my purse to dry my head once I was done. My head gets very hot and sweaty under a hat.

For some reason I have been feeling a little more tired than usual this week. I am going to have to try to get to bed earlier and hope that - that will help me feel more rested. I do not like feeling this tired and drained. Have started taking vitamins hoping that will help too.

I hope you all have a good day. I have some errands to run - hoping to find some great stuff - to do with my granddaughter this summer. :O)