Ok - Here is what is going on- They are going to schedule me for a pet scan -sometime before next Friday - the 13th. On Friday morning - I have an apt with the oncology specialist again. If the pet scan does not show any or much cancer - I may have to have surgery - if I do- it will be done on Dec 30th. They will have to get samples of lymph nodes in my pelvic region and else where on my abdomen and some tissue samples- to test them for cancer. Apparently the kind of cancer I have is very aggressive and is very unusual for someone my age - 44.
Whether I have surgery or not - I will have to have Chemo - 4 months worth. And Radiation. We do not know to what extent I will have to have radiation yet - we will have to wait until we have the results from the pet scan and surgery(unless the pet scan shows up a lot of cancer).
Bad news for me - is the chemo will make me lose my hair. Unless I am one of the lucky 10% - with God anything is possible. But I am preparing myself for that - just in case.
I know that God is in control - although this has totally shocked me. I was shocked to have to have the hysterectomy - never thought I would have to have one. The last two weeks I have had moments where I have felt sorry for myself because of having to have it. Now my perspective has changed, I am SO thankful that it is out of there. And I am thankful that I did not know that it was cancerous before the surgery - it would have been harder for me to have felt as much peace as I did. God is capable of giving me that peace no matter what - but truthfully I needed to work through acceptance with the hysterectomy and I am so thankful that God understood that and only gave me part of the trial at a time. I have had time to rest and recoup some over the last two weeks. I have gotten a bit of routine of taking some natural stuff for hot flashes and such. Which by the way - I will probably not be able to take estrogen because of the cancer. So it is good that I have been treating it naturally. It is scary to thank that I do not have the estrogen to fall back on if I need to but I am thinking right now the estrogen is the least of my problems.
Today - when we were at the Cancer Center - it was sad. As I looked around the waiting room at all the people there and those coming and going.
Please when you are praying for me please be praying for all those affected by cancer. There are many people who deal with it and you never can tell. It really makes me want to have more compassion for people - because truthfully we never know what trials others are facing.
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You're right... We just never know. So much to deal with on this side of the eternal world, but our God is faithful and he will see us through to the end.
ReplyDeleteKeep holding on, Lisa. {{{BIG HUG}}}
Thank you Ruth. :o)
DeleteI am praying for a miracle for you. {{big hugs}}
ReplyDeleteThanks Marci :o)
DeleteMy dear Lisa, thank you for sharing this news with us. What a shock it must have been. But what a tremendous blessing it was to have this surgery! If you never had it, I wonder how long it would have taken to even wonder if there was a problem.
ReplyDeleteGod had his generous eye on you, and your doctor.
You know that I am praying for you, and now I will include all the people affected by cancer. What a tender heart you have to feel for others.
Stay strong in the Lord, and he will not disappoint you. You will be beautiful with or without your hair, but I'll be praying for that 10%. God bless you and your husband in the days ahead.
I am so glad we are blog-friends.
Ceil
Thanks Ceil :O)
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